When You Are Ready

Last year, I broke up with my boyfriend. He dumped me actually. It was hurt. It still hurts until now. Well, we've dated for four and half years. From the start until now, I can't even name a reason to break up with him. 

When you broke up with someone, you lost some of your confidence. You feel meaningless. You are not that worth to be keep. That was what I feel. And you know, it was lonely. 

After that, a man came into my life. He showed me caring and gave me affections. I am happy, of course. I was like he filled my emptiness, made me feel loved. I almost accept his love without thinking further. 

But then, there was a friend of mine said something that slapped me in the face. 

"Love when you are ready,not when you are lonely

Don't date someone just because you are lonely 

or feel empty

Because when you finally move on later and ready

You won't need him anymore" 

I thought about it and shit, that was true. So, I refused his love in the end. I felt like a bad guy for giving him hope all that time, but that was the best thing I could do.

Yes,
Until my heart ready..